5 things I did when my mental and physical health were at their lowest
To feel lighter and brighter now
Hi love
Last year was a doozy. I’ve spoken about it here before. At the time I felt perplexed and overwhelmed. In hindsight I find myself shaking my head in bewilderment. It was one thing after another for a while there, and I feel relieved to be on the other side; where the roller coaster of life provides moments of respite between the chaos. I can see how people end up ruined when life throws them one curveball after another, or they’re floored by a tragic event. Sometimes the overwhelm becomes too much and a seemingly small thing can tip you over the edge.
Before last year I’d had a couple of panic attacks in my life. I can remember the first time I was so stressed that I couldn’t breathe. It was off an island in Cambodia and my friends and I found ourselves swimming between two shores but not moving, the current beneath us so strong. We tried flagging down a boat but they didn’t see us, and I started to think we might not make it back. All of a sudden I was struggling to breathe. I floated on my back for a while and the panic subsided. Soon after, another boat passed and we were transported back to our bungalow. Apparently the staff at the guest house had been keeping an eye on us the whole time, so it wasn’t as close a call as I’d thought, but for a second there I was pretty convinced I might die, and that’s about as scary as it gets; the kind of situation that outwardly, rightfully justifies being a bit flustered.